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She’s Retrieving her original story

young girl

Artwork: Trockn

She’s reclaiming the original story that she incarnated to live. With her arrival began the distancing away from her original script. The world changed her story. She was too young, soft, guileless, impressionable when they did it. When she tried to tell her version, they said ‘your story is too dangerous, impractical, wrong, crazy, naïve, impossible, foolish.’

Before she knew it, she was living their story. Her life became a cheap paperback edition of her hardbound, jewel and gold engraved book with satiny pages, exquisite illustrations, amazing journeys and adventures, magical inventions, music, romance and mystery. In her story, she was sometimes a majestic queen, a beautiful and romantic heroine, a fearless warrior, a mystical fairy, a powerful witch. She could fly and sing like a bird, dance like the wind, she was kind, loving and funny. The universe was her best friend and she was never hurt or unhappy.

Very early on, when her original story split from her, she secretly fed it in her imagination. She kept her sanity by living in two worlds. The most painful phases of her life were when the link between her two worlds broke.

She’s remembering and reclaiming her original manuscript. On her many trips underground, she’s retrieving it page by page. The power of her story is entering back into her. There’s a peace that’s coming into her from living the right life.

She has not yet read the last chapters, but there’s a great excitement building. It’s such a grand tale! And its better than any story she’s ever read.

 

 

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She’s reclaiming the holy dark

cave

Art: Anne-Claire Payet

“The spirit of the valley never dies;
This is called the dark female.
The doorway into the dark female
Is called the root of heaven and earth.
It is there within us all the while;
Draw upon it as you will, it never runs dry.”

-Tao Te Ching 6

 

She’s reclaiming her dark feminine as she heals the split. The word dark has been used to scare her away from the fullness of her essence for a long time. She was programmed into a belief that only light is pure, and the dark is evil. And thus was she separated from her power. She was allowed to live and experience only the ‘good’ girl, and a very large part of her existence became unsanctioned. She got split between good & bad, and she was told that the good would get her acceptance & the bad would get her rejection. Her raw, mystical, wild, shamanic self was banished into the underground, to be perhaps visited in dreams.

Her dark is nothing but her denied feminine. It is primal, NOT evil.

As her fear is disappearing, she’s refusing to live in guilt anymore. She’s untangling from shame, the single most powerful weapon to chain her. Her frequent journeys underground have revealed to her the immense power of the dark. She’s discovering she was never evil. All that she had hidden away in the dark was actually quite cool. It was just that she would have been too dangerous. She’s reclaiming her wildness fully and unabashedly now. She knows that the dark is where things take birth. Deep in the earth’s womb is where the seed germinates, deep in her dark womb is where life begins to form.

A connection to the dark brings her face to face to her mystical connection with life, death and rebirth. She accessing the power of blood mysteries. She’s travelling to the center of the universe, the black light of the cosmic womb, her most nourishing place now. She’s reclaiming Kali, Lilith, Baba Yaga in her.

In her embrace of her dark feminine, she’s healing the split of spirit from matter, heaven from earth, sacred from profane, human from divine, light from dark.

She’s sacred. And it has no opposite.