She is developing a new muscle called surrender. Far too long, she’s gone on overdrive to plan everything. She believed that if she organised, scheduled and calculated meticulously, she could control outcomes & avoid surprises. It was the way she took care of her neurosis. This also meant that if she was not perpetually stressed, something was wrong.
Then she began a journey into her own self. By loving, honouring, claiming her body, heart and soul.
That is when she discovered the reality that the universe is her strongest ally. It was her fears, and not her world, that was out to get her. By giving up the story that her world is unsafe, she’s coming into trust that she is held and cherished by the universe. She no longer predicts her future from a place of fear.
She is becoming relaxed and confident. She’s in a loving, co-creative relationship with her world. She’s learning that as she relaxes into trust, her longings show themselves to her, and light up her the path. She makes her prayer, offers her sankalpa, and lets it go. She can now wait without despairing. She’s getting an insight into the inner workings of the universe. Her deepest plan already exists. She can begin to see that now, and it is hugely re-assuring.
Synchronicity & easy manifestation is how her world is now. She’s getting used to being pampered by the universe.
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A devotional core is her natural self. At the deep end of her heart is longing and devotion. Longing to Source, Love, Beauty & Truth feeds her soul. Devotion is her spontaneous expression of it in the world. While the first nourishes her journey, the second nourishes the world. While her longing is her inner, unseen fire, her devotion is the revealed aspect of it. As her longing deepens, her devotional fire is becoming great melting pot ~ softening her and everything that comes in it.
She longs to connect & include. Her worship takes a million forms. Her vulnerable believing self has been often asked to fit into regimental doctrine, & sometimes exploited by teachers. Not any more, as she deeply connects to her core, her inner teacher ~ her womb temple, and unleashes her own archetypal spiritual essence. She’s connecting to an unexplained sweetness. You can see her now, joyously serving up more from this inexhaustible well. She is resuscitating her world quietly and powerfully through her powerful vibrational being. Her devout heart is relentlessly, fiercely loving! When she meets you, she deeply recognises and accepts you ~ just as you are.
Her devotion replicates god’s love. It is effortless & fun! As she moves deeper into her longing, the spark of devotion becomes a steady flame. When she gathers in a circle with others like her, the conflagration of devotional hearts is phenomenal.
Her awakened heart evokes reverence. Her balming presence is knocking open the door in hearts that have been closed for so long. Knowing her is knowing truth, beauty & love.
Some days, she deeply connects to an unnamed longing. She does not remember its origin. It can be triggered by a fragrance, a colour, a sound, an expression, a dream or the way the sunlight slants through the trees. She wonders at the exquisite pain of it.
She simply knows that one end of it is connects to her heart ~ and she feels a tug at the other end.She is learning to lean deeper into it. Touching it is like a melting ~ a dissolving of the spaces in her heart. Sometimes it brings tears, and she may cry. Oh! what unrequited love affair is this?
This longing is a remembrance, it does not yet have a name ~ it goes deeper than her memory. She is learning to use it as a compass to show her the way ~ when she is very still, very alert, she can hear its whispered message. There is a mysterious magnetic pull in it.
She too is speaking to her longing. Whoever or whatever is on the other end of it longs for her too. She knows this longing will reveal to her who she really is. Whenever it comes, she feels touched by grace.