Shhhh! She is travelling between worlds right now. You can see her holding the tension of not knowing ~ she is simply breathing into her unanswered questions. Sometimes she drinks her coffee with quaking hands, not knowing where her relationship or her bank account is going.
But this time, she is holding on to the tension of not knowing, and is not willing to hit the panic button. She is unlearning thousands of years of conditioning. She is not being split between the opposing forces of fight and flight.
She is neither naïve nor ignorant. She is a frontier woman, paving new roads & making new choices.
She is willing to making a new transcendent possibility emerge. You may see her now ~ standing at thresholds, or at crossroads ~ breathing into her body ~ intently listening for inner signals. She’s learning new navigation skills as she arrives at a most magical moment of her life.
She is dreaming deeply now ~ her dreams are very potent, powerful, intense ~ with omens, openings and meanings. She is owning her dreaming back. She walks the subterranean labyrinth ~ braving the deep dark recesses ~ reclaiming her treasures.
She suddenly has access to a new wisdom ~ a new spiritual muscle ~ her dreaming is becoming her ally.
Sometimes it is scary ~ but she goes anyway ~ her new consciousness is willing to face the pain to birth herself anew. Her nightmares are perhaps only her denied stories. Things that chase her are perhaps her separated selves ready to join her back.
Her deep restfulness will come from avoiding nothing, facing everything.
It is spring cleaning time for her psyche ~
Sometimes, you may see her sitting in her chair by the window ~ housework scattered all over the place ~ just looking out with unseeing eyes ~ beware ~ do not disturb her ~ she’s in an enchanted place ~ she is regrouping her energies ~ connecting to her ‘no zone’ zone. Suddenly, she’s out of her reverie, and back with a new zing. No one knows where she went. Something has fallen into place. She’s back with a sigh.
All women know of this place they visit. It is wired into us. Its a moment when everything comes back together to a magical one-point. We use this fade out, fade in technique even without noticing it. Have you ever met a woman who walks out of her busy office day, walks the block and is back at her desk ~ as if back from a vacation?
Remember to drink from that deep well today.
The feminine has an insight into the mystery of the pulsing universe ~ the spandan, the pulling & pushing energy. She knows its rhythm and lives by it.
She accepts the continuous play of expansion & contraction, the ebb & flow. Her wisdom guides her to ride the current cycle. She does not fight or resist what is. She can easily let go what is over. She knows that attachment is losing the current, and stepping out of the present cycle.
So she plans astutely. She does not get caught on the wrong foot. By closely recognising the small and big cycles that play in her life, she can predict what is to come. She is comfortable with complexity, and cycles within cycles.
Her wisdom is always showing her deeper ways to surrender, rather than control. You will always see her using her energy efficiently.
The Feminine is befriending her shadows. Chances are we’ve kept our fierceness in the shadows, showing up in the world with a sweet face only.
What if we were a goddess of a thousand faces ~ from sweet, to compassionate, to fierce, to deep, to grotesque, to innocent, to wise, to creator, to destructor, to god~~~~~~~~~ endless it is. These are just words on which we had put specific charges ~ some we said were ok, and some not ok.
Time to see it all in us. When we pull back all projections, we are reconstructed. Our projections only took us further away from ourselves. We have been living in a world that was outside. And now, we are pulling all the threads back ~ honouring the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful within. Everything that is here is honoured. Everything ~ just as it is.
We heal all that is split. We embroider ourselves back. Sometimes we are a colourful riot of a patchwork quilt, sometimes the soft flow and dangerous eddies of the river, sometimes wild grass and flowers, sometimes perfume in a pretty bottle. Sometimes a wild storm and thundering rain, sometimes the soft click on the keyboard.
In short, we are so interesting! We never cease to surprise ourselves~ What can happen when we inhabit ourselves fully?
A woman’s physical scars hold stories of survival, of having made it, of going through death and back. Battle scars tell us that are will to live has won. Our bodies won. We are the sisterhood of the scar clan. We’re connecting back to them with love and healing, and releasing the history they hold. We’re releasing the shame and pain that they’ve meant. Their presence and message is fully received. We are ready for them to integrate back into our bodies.
She is not ashamed of her scars. They are NOT a blot on her body. They have offered her a healthy body. We owe them as teachers. She does not judge them. She touches them with love.
And as she does, she can see them feel their job is done, and they are ready to integrate.
One of the most difficult things for a woman has been to walk away. So many times she still clung to what was long over. It was unhealthy, painful, and depleting.
We are experiencing a great cycle of walking away ~ from dishonouring relationships, spaces that do not enhance, jobs that do not nurture, behaviour patterns that do not nourish our soul.
We are walking away with sure steps, and head held high. Maybe our hearts are trembling, but we are learning new behaviour. We are changing our dna.
This is transition time. Its ok for now to be in an unsure zone. We will be amzingly clear what we want to walk towards. But we’re walking.