Deep Defiance

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She’s redefining Deep Defiance.
It comes from her roots going deep into the earth. There are too many happenings in her world wanting to break her down. Her rootedness makes her unshakable. That is defiance enough. It does not necessarily show up as a fist in the air. Defiance is the maturing of her intractable nature. It can even show up as a soft melting presence.

Her defiance can be seen in the simplicity of her choices, In the care with which she chooses her fights, in her quiet ‘no’, or her ability to say ‘I differ’, no explanations, no apologies.

Her defiance is in her capacity to be un-shame-able. What would have brought her down now now deepens her resilience. Her anger, when it burns, is well placed and well focussed. All action is informed from the womb of the earth. She needs no other confirmation for what she knows.

A woman, sitting relaxed, choosing inner peace over neurosis, seems like a very defiant woman. A woman, seeing the design behind the design of the chaos, seems very defiant.

She is incorruptible, though the world would call her incorrigible.

Joyous Woman with Sukhvinder Sircar

(searching for the name of the photographer of this beautiful image)

 

The Female Gaze.

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Tony Luciani’s picture of his mother

Hers is the gaze of the creatrix. Life and beauty on earth deeply engage and energise her.

She sees a lot more than you can guess, and her gaze is one of attached love. She sees with a thousand eyes, all of them in love, all of them committed. Her steadfast gaze (rooted in love and commitment) does not shy away from the brokenness in the world.

The brokenness longs to be seen. She looks deeply into the faces that hold quiet despair, shards of dreams still embedded in their eyes. She ‘takes in’ all the disrepair and heals it in her heart and womb. She repairs,soothes and honours with fullness of her acknowledging what is. In a world that is heaving with turbulence, she is the steady ship. In quiet unseen ways, she transmits her deep seeing to the world. Almost imperceptibly, something begins to shift.

Her broken open, sensitive heart keeps her gaze soft. With a tender ferocity, she holds invisible possibilities safe in her womb, where new life begins. Her imaginal cells are sourced from the very core of the cosmic egg.

The intensity of what she knows is incubating the seed. Her womb, that is also the Great Void, is tuned into the secret laws of creation. She simultaneously straddles the world that exists, and the one that is to come.

Of course you can’t see it yet. It’s still a grand conspiracy.

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Every day she learns that the opposite of divide is divine.

The sacred feminine is walking with her towards unity consciousness. Meeting the Goddess was the key to see the union of things. There She is, the heart of matter! Just like that, all the illusions of duality began to peel away. She is beginning to see separation is an artificial construct of the mind.

Her world is starting to mend and meld in magical ways. She is entering a process of gathering back all that she had cast away. She had lived in a world divided by race, colour of skin, money, education, culture and more. While her inner world is embracing her shadow, her outer world is healing the split. The more she meets herself inside, the more she meets each one outside. Her outer world is not categorised into first, second or third world. The word elite is being erased. It is a journey to hold an ‘equal’ gaze. She is meeting everyone where they are, with honour and respect.

Meeting the goddess is a quantum jump in her evolutionary journey. And her awakening is an infectious process.

She is uniting that which was broken, joining back that which was split.

She’s embodying the true meaning of yoga.

She’s inspiring herself

She’s becoming her own role-model.

She’s always looked for mentors and idols to mould herself into. Not any more.

As she evolves into a woman who begins to recognise her uniqueness, she cannot find examples to emulate. Nobody really fits the template for who she is becoming. Her path is distinctive, and like her, singular. An inner stirring informs her that this time, she has to create from the inside out.

She always had heroines and heroes in her life, but the more she’s maturing, the more she’s acknowledging her own awesomeness. Taking the power back to herself is still new to her, as is re-creating herself from her own example. She is daring deeply.

These are times of transition. She steps into this unfamiliar journey, both with trepidation and excitement. As there is no benchmark, she is free to create. If at all she looks for a mentor, it is one who asks her to believe in herself.

She’s learning to be her own source. She’s reincarnating in the same body.

As she stands in her own singularity, she fits better into her world.

She’s practicing her new power ~ surrender.

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She is developing a new muscle called surrender. Far too long, she’s gone on overdrive to plan everything. She believed that if she organised, scheduled and calculated meticulously, she could control outcomes & avoid surprises.  It was the way she took care of her neurosis. This also meant that if she was not perpetually stressed, something was wrong.

Then she began a journey into her own self. By loving, honouring, claiming her body, heart and soul.

That is when she discovered the reality that the universe is her strongest ally. It was her fears, and not her world, that was out to get her.  By giving up the story that her world is unsafe, she’s coming into trust that she is held and cherished by the universe. She no longer predicts her future from a place of fear. 

She is becoming relaxed and confident. She’s in a loving, co-creative relationship with her world. She’s learning that as she relaxes into trust, her longings show themselves to her, and light up her the path. She makes her prayer, offers her sankalpa, and lets it go. She can now wait without despairing. She’s getting an insight into the inner workings of the universe. Her deepest plan already exists. She can begin to see that now, and it is hugely re-assuring.

Synchronicity & easy manifestation is how her world is now. She’s getting used to being pampered by the universe.

She’s ceasing the light & dark war

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Looking for the Artist’s name to give credit

There is no fight left in her. Thank the goddess for that!

The long & futile battle of light & dark has left her exhausted. She’s accepting both light & dark as the inherent gifts of the universe. She’s not in a duelling match with them. The light no longer wishes to ‘reform’ her dark, and her dark no longer wants to ‘control’ the light. She’s stopped playing the duality game.

She’s not being fooled into buying the teaching that there’s something wrong with her that needs fixing, or that she’s got work to do before she’s finally ‘good’. Her divinity is in fully embracing her humanity. All of it. So where’s the imperfection?

The myth that one day light will vanquish the dark and there will be peace would have kept her exhausted & imprisoned. And in the power of the ones who made her belive it. She’s deciding to be at peace right now! Even the light and dark within her are sitting at peace with each other. Game over.

What she’s experiencing in the ceasing of war is an unbelievable tranquillity & peace. Thank goddess she’s relaxing into her own wisdom everyday.

Her dark is the womb of things.

She’s standing for herself

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She’s embodying courage in taking a stand for herself like never before.

She’s finally allowing herself to be all of who she is. She’s out in the open, no hiding. A keener glance will show she’s accessing & standing for something bigger & deeper.

What she’s really standing for is love, joy, dignity, courage, wisdom, community, co-creation, longing, sacred impulse and so much more~ all of which is rooted in divine truth. Yes, that’s her.

The more she evolves, the more her boundaries between personal & universal, inner & outer dissolve. As they meld & flow into each other, they replenish & nurture her in manifold ways. She’s learning the art of fearlessly weaving her new reality into her life. She’s spirited, fiery & clear that her stand is enough now to bring the change. You can never push her around. The more she dignifies  her truth, the more the world dignifies her too.

Her truth is non-negotiable. She’s quite the inspirational new warrior in the world, just by doing her own thing.