She’s opening her phoenix code

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Art: Chaerul-Umam

She’s opening her phoenix code.

That is because she’s ignited a sacred fire inside her that holds the fire of the sun. It’s burning to ashes all that is untrue in her life.

No one else but she herself can now shine the light to who she’s becoming. She’s always looked for mentors and idols to emulate. Not any more.

She’s evolving into a woman who is unique. No one in her world really fits the template for who she is becoming. Her path is singular, specially laid out for her. She’s realising that at this time she has to fall back on herself to mould, forge and craft her new self.

She did have heroines and heroes in her life, but the more she’s maturing, the more she’s acknowledging her own awesomeness. This is new for her, re-creating herself from her own example. Her work with ending the cycle of victimhood and coming into a deep honouring of herself, is birthing this new being. This time round, her imagination is powerfully by her side, showing her who she truly is.

She’s living in times of transition, and she’s excitedly stepping into this unfamiliar journey that is beyond standards, beyond regular & normal. Even beyond ideal. If she needs a teacher or mentor now, she’s choosing the one who will  teach her how to tend her own sacred fire.

The key to owning all of herself, is to be her own source.
She’s remembering the art of reincarnating in the same body.

The more she stands in her own singularity, the better she fits into her world.

Sukhvinder Sircar

She’s in a committed relationship with herself

 

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She’s into a committed relationship with herself and her world.

She belongs to herself before she is committing to anyone else. Happily, that itself is sorting out a lot of things in her life. The more she marries her deepest longing, the more it takes her to a place larger than her.

There are too many things in her world that are wrong, off-balance, and disharmonious. Her new commitment empowers her to take a stand. Her work and voice carry the zing of her new wisdom & response-ability.

Her days of complaining, brooding and blaming are over. Her tolerance for unfairness, manipulation, exploitation is very low. Her stand is clearing a lot of nonsense and leakage of energy within her family, in her groups and in the larger community.Her commitment and deep caring is showing up in a new, powerful voice that says ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ with great clarity. She’s tapping deep, unknown spaces within her. Her gaze is becoming deeper & more inclusive as she questions the status quo. Her passion for peace, justice and truth is now fuelling her leadership. She’s earning a new respect. As within, so without.

Her self-belief is her new courage of heart. She’s continually choosing the part that is unafraid, even when fear kicks in. As her Shakti awakens, she holds a charge in her being that has the power to transform.

She’s standing for a world she believes in. And it is giving her results.

Someone has to live in her imagined new world to give it form on earth. She’s that creatrix.

 

Her Goddess Pause

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Art: Francois Fressinier

She calls it her goddess pause.

She is choosing to have more of these soft, delicate, moments of pausing with herself. Something sweet, unexplained comes to meet her at these times. Sometimes she hears herself releasing a deep sigh.

She’s discovering the richness of those moments of reverie. Everything inside & outside comes together in a harmonious song. She once again has entered the unnamable world. It leaves her soothed & refreshed. When she comes out of it, she’s not sure why she feels that something just got done.

Anyway, she’s beginning to love this non-doing work time. She’s learning to joyously tap into this nourishing pool of quiet-ness.

She’s arriving into present time

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She’s arriving into present time.This is the gift of her deep work.

She has been healing her pain, embracing her shadows, claiming her body & womb temple, releasing her shame, clearing the victim/oppressor, facing her fears, walking out of dishonouring spaces & so much more.

She’s a warrior. She stands steady, anchored inside herself. She’s let go her history and cleared her cellular memories. She’s no longer lost in the haunted alleys of her past. They’re clean, lit up and fragrant with her loving awareness. As she connects to her divine longing & her passion, she deepens her surrender. It is interesting that when she let go her past, her anxieties of future vanished too. Surprised, she  discovered that they were really the same thing. She’s becoming relaxed about where her life is heading.

She’s free & uncluttered, & ready to travel to where her life is calling. She’s travelling light. With her energy  unstuck from the past & future, she’s listening deep into the now.

She’s fully present. She’s amazed at how relaxed and alert she is at the same time.

She could easily pass through the eye of a needle.

She’s Retrieving her original story

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Artwork: Trockn

She’s reclaiming the original story that she incarnated to live. With her arrival began the distancing away from her original script. The world changed her story. She was too young, soft, guileless, impressionable when they did it. When she tried to tell her version, they said ‘your story is too dangerous, impractical, wrong, crazy, naïve, impossible, foolish.’

Before she knew it, she was living their story. Her life became a cheap paperback edition of her hardbound, jewel and gold engraved book with satiny pages, exquisite illustrations, amazing journeys and adventures, magical inventions, music, romance and mystery. In her story, she was sometimes a majestic queen, a beautiful and romantic heroine, a fearless warrior, a mystical fairy, a powerful witch. She could fly and sing like a bird, dance like the wind, she was kind, loving and funny. The universe was her best friend and she was never hurt or unhappy.

Very early on, when her original story split from her, she secretly fed it in her imagination. She kept her sanity by living in two worlds. The most painful phases of her life were when the link between her two worlds broke.

She’s remembering and reclaiming her original manuscript. On her many trips underground, she’s retrieving it page by page. The power of her story is entering back into her. There’s a peace that’s coming into her from living the right life.

She has not yet read the last chapters, but there’s a great excitement building. It’s such a grand tale! And its better than any story she’s ever read.

 

 

Becoming her own Mother

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Art: Natalia Tajera

She’s accessing a joyous inner conversation.

She’s speaking to herself differently now. She thought she was a victim to an external oppressor, but it’s been more dangerous than that.

She’s realising she had internalized all her oppressors from childhood. They’re still busy controlling & disciplining her as her inner voice. These voices create self-reproach when she’s just resting on the couch, reading a book, sitting in the garden, taking a nap ~ saying to her ‘don’t waste your time’. She’s been so programmed into being useful & productive that’ free’ time, indulgence, self-care becomes a ‘guilty pleasure’. That she should rest is intolerant to this inner oppressor disguised as ‘her’ voice.

This voice is there to steal her power. It tells her she’s lesser when she’s with a group, it tells her she’s selfish when she wants to pursue her dream, and it tells her she wont make it anyways ~ cause she’s always wrong. It’s there to create shame. She’s been sleeping with the enemy.

Not any more. Finally, she’s taking care of the little girl within.  She’s dis-identifying with this voice. She’s breaking the oppressive chains & giving herself free rein. Everything she does, feel, thinks is ok. She’s un-hooking from the programme that tells her anything other than that she’s beautiful, awesome, gorgeous and perfect the way she is. She’s accessing her inner mother who has this  soft golden voice of a most loving, indulgent, proud mom ~ and she says to her again and again how beautiful, gorgeous, wise, funny, courageous, talented and perfect she is.

Her inner father is so proud, his voice always assuring her she’s safe and protected, and she can go forth fearlessly into her dreams and goals. He believes in her and is always available. He wants to show her off in the world.

She and her inner child is finally having fun. She’s speaking to herself in a  loving, indulgent and supportive way. She’s treating herself as precious.  It is making her so relaxed and peaceful. The chattering in her head ends, and even if it tries to come back, she’s not paying heed.

Becoming her own dream parent is probably one of the most significant spiritual lessons she was meant to learn.

She’s accessing a new map

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She could never read maps. She now realises why. There’s a special kind of map she’s called to follow, and she’s re-learning her navigation skills.

She reads this map with her inner knowing. She downloaded it with her sankalpa to walk her path. This special map is lit with the light of her longing. The more she leans into her longing, the clearer her direction. Initially, she would be a bit confused, reluctant to give up her planning and caution, but it had the price of becoming lost. The map gifts her efficiency, economy & joy. Her body is her most powerful ally in reading the map.

The entire map never really shows up. Just the bit she’s standing on appears. She’s so content with not knowing the future. She’s learning to become still and dives into the rich moment. As she’s coming into present time, she makes the amazing discovery that it’s the only place the ego cannot come. She’s pure and safe here.

The key to her map is surrender. The more she trusts it, the more it teaches her ~ and she has begun to believe that eventually, every dot will be connected, even the most baffling ones. That’s because it’s not a linear map ~ it has cycles within cycles.  It is such a freedom being directed and supported from within.

She’s walking towards her true North. The map is within her, and the map is her.